i HAD SEX 5 TIMES TODAY!!!!!!! :O
i HAD SEX 5 TIMES TODAY!!!!!!! :O
Talking to my friend just now...
In a way, I was glad that I was dumped by my ex because I'd be away from my friend. I'd be away from the coolest guy I know. Someone I really care for.
*crying as I type this*
Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate | Name: Yami G | HR: 2+
So I met this incredibly attractive girl today. Not attractive in the traditional sense, but in that dyed-hair, pale, slightly punkish look way that for some reason I find so incredibly awesome. Quiet, a bit of an indifferent look on her face, as though the world bores her (another thing that I find strangely attractive), and red hair... oh, the red hair. Yes, it was dyed, but somehow the flaming dark fluorescent hue only made it even more stunning. And to top it all off, she had great curves.
And then I found out she was a lesbian.
I swear, if it was my goal in life to discover oddly attractive nerdy lesbians and become interested in them, I would be well on my way to becoming a huge success.![]()
Love? God no. I'm not sure I've ever really fallen in love with anyone. The only girl that came close didn't feel the same. In fact, I'm convinced that she was just using me as a boy toy while her boyfriend was gone, because I can't get her to talk to me outside of class. And this girl wasn't "scene". Not in the strict sense of the word. Dyed hair? Yes. Pale skin? Yes. That's about it. She was too old to be "scene". But it's not the first time I've thought a girl was attractive, only to find out that said girl is a lesbian.
My apologies, I definitely didn't mean to say love. As for this girl, I like the same type...for some reason I was under the impression that she was some scene girl, but I can definitely go for pale chicks with red hair
How's that situation with the girl you work with, though? I can't remember if you gave us an update on it or not.
My stance on relationships is that I cannot be in one. Not only because of the stress it puts on me, but because of the pressure it puts on my self-esteem. Physically, I am not desirable. And my experience with relationships lets me know that changing myself physically for the sole purpose of getting a date would be a huge waste. I don't mean this as a depressing statement... only just that, a statement.
I mean it in the same matter-of-fact way I would mean it when I say that I have insomnia, or that I have strange feet, or that I do not like my hair. It's just a simple fact that I cannot, and should not, be in a relationship. What I'm attempting to do now is to force myself to remain neutral in attraction. I fail at this... frequently. But when I succeed, it's very helpful, because it allows me to go through daily life without stressing about getting a date. That's what is important to me right now. I graduate college in a year, and I have no idea where I will be after that. Any relationship I attempt between now and then will only add stress onto what will already be my hardest year yet of college. I'm putting the energy I would normally put into getting a relationship into forcing every fiber of my being to stay OUT of a relationship, to protect my own sanity. Because that's what relationships do to me... they make me insane.
The texts me and my friend are exchanging are getting more awkward... but nice.
Man, my face is so red right now.
Monster Hunter 3 Ultimate | Name: Yami G | HR: 2+