I wrote up a letter last night expressing my feelings for the girl that's been driving me nuts for the past few years. I'm gonna wait until I give the least amount of a shit possible about her reply, and then send it to her and be done with it.
inb4tellherinperson. If I could tell her in person I would, but that isn't gonna work. She's so gorgeous I can barely keep a simple conversation with her without getting lost in a mouth-open-drooling-like-a-dumbass trance. If I tried to tell this shit to her in person it would come out something like "UR....UM....PRETTY...AND STUFF". Properly articulating my thoughts coherently is a lot more important to me than proving my ballsiness by saying this in person.
It's not exactly a heartfelt love letter. It's basically saying "Hey you. You do some weird shit to my head. Probably cause you're so awesome. And I know this is awkward as fuck, but hey, it's out there and it's off my chest. Process it however you want. I'm done worrying about it." Obviously it's in greater detail than that, but that's the general message
I don't care if she never talks to me again. I've realized that the reason I'm so worked up over it isn't cause she is genuinely the most perfect thing walking the earth. It's just cause I never told her the way I feel, and that's why I can't let it go. So sending the letter isn't going to be a letter of love confessing as much as it is purging my feelings and being done with it. A release from the mental enslaving she does to me. How she takes it is irrelevant.
Just got off the phone with her. I sent it and she called to tell me her thoughts. Apparently the fact that I didn't take myself seriously at all in the message was the right choice. She was really glad that I got that out there and that we could progress as friends. This is the first time she has ever used the word "friends" where I haven't wanted to projectile vomit everywhere. I feel free actually. Like I just lost 20 pounds. I'm mentally over it now and I'm ready to turn my life around. Why I didn't do this sooner I have no idea. Thanks for you guys putting up with my shit over the past year or so. You rock <3
You really should. It's the coolest feeling in the world. If nothing else, you'll be proud of yourself. As silly as it sounds, being open about your feelings is a really difficult thing to do. There's a feeling of accomplishment you get when you finally build up the courage to do it. Even if she turns you down, you'll still be smiling from that "Oh my god. I just did that. How ballsy am I?" feeling.
I would think that being open about your feelings in person would be a lot more ballsier than through a letter, by my experience. I confessed to her that I've developed feelings of interest about two years ago, and basically got the same result.
Only except that even though I accepted being a very close friend of her's, I got careless and my feelings for her went from being interested in her to caring about her as if she mattered to me since the confession.
She's the type of person, from the way I see it, that likes the attention from others, but doesn't want to commit her life for one person. She probably doesn't want to know that my feelings for her skyrocketed from the last time I confessed, but I'll get over it eventually, even though it has been really painful for myself going through with this.
Last edited by Nerdysimmer; 01-12-2012 at 01:35 AM.
girls STINX
Last edited by Unknown Flames; 11-26-2012 at 08:27 AM.
That's what I was planning to do, it's such a bummer man.
As for later use, I have a couple questions. One, how young is too young? This girl is 2 years younger than me, I honestly think it's not that bad of a difference. Two, is it okay to date your really good friend's sister?
1: For right now, 2 years is about as low as you want to go.
2: Depends on the friend. You'll definitely want to talk to him about it beforehand. Basically ask him "Hey, I think I like your sister. If I date her, will that affect our friendship in any way? If so, I'll back off." No girl is worth jeopardizing a good friendship.