Okay, long story here.
So my bro let my friend borrow his 3DS for a day. He took it with him to church and stuff. The girl that I like goes to the same church as my friend. And she asked my friend to take pictures of her. (She was clothed, zip your pants back up, guys.)
Anyway, she said to make sure I see them, too. Her brother says she likes me, her sister says she likes me, my friend says she likes me.
I think she likes me :O
Pretty much got rejected last night asking a girl if she wanted to see Deathly Hallows with me.
Girls just don't like me man idgi.
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If it makes you feel any better, I've yet to meet a female even close to my age who sees me as a viable partner... Typically, if a girl likes me, she is (damn this luck) between 15 and 19. That leaves two legal choices, at 18 and 19. I just turned 23.
Anyways, if anybody remembers the female co-worker situation, her and I are super close friends and see each other about two or three times a week outside of work. But, being lonely, I've moved on to somebody one or two of you might be familiar with if you've watched The Tester season 2. She's in our group on CheapAssGamer, and I got to meet her last weekend, and I cannot get her off my mind at all. Unfortunately, she lives about an hour away and has a boyfriend. BUT WHAT ABOUT ME!?
She's 6.
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I met one girl who wanted to date me. I punched her twice in the head at a concert and got her number. And then I found out she was into smoking and drinking and banging whatever. That was kewl. /delete from lyfe.
Also, hour away + boyfriend + plays video games = no bueno combo.
swag
So there's this girl I know. I took a class with her last year, and had another class with her this year. She's funny and charming... beautiful and intelligent... witty and talented... driven and passionate... opinionated and outgoing. She's clumsy enough to be humorous, and when she smiles it just lights up the room. And the more I find out about her, the more I realize how much I wanted someone just like her without realizing it. Every time she posts something on Facebook, it seems to be something we agree on, an interest that we share, a favorite childhood memory we agree on. I can make her laugh, and when I break out my own talents, I can easily blow her away with the things I can do, and vice versa. She and I click so well... the teachers put us together on nearly every group project because we understand one another, our talents complement each other. We can communicate across the room without speaking... we understand what the other is thinking just from facial expressions, and we can read each others' reactions. I've never met anyone like her. And I guess in the back of my mind I knew this was how I felt about her, but for some reason it just hit me today and I started thinking about her. She's one of the few good friends that I have, and I would even go so far as to say that she's like the sister I always wanted. Together, in the classroom, we play off of each others' ideas, building on what the other is thinking. I even heard her talking to the other girls in the class once, telling them that she had always wanted a scientist boyfriend.
Unfortunately, she has one... and they're engaged. and as if to add insult to injury, she's at least 6 inches taller than me, and he's nearly a head taller than she is. I think life just hates me.
I have the strangest life...
I spend so much time worrying about securing the affections of girls I barely know... trying to win over girls that I have nothing in common with, girls that have no interest in me. I waste my time and my health and my money and my sanity stressing over affection that will never be mine. And for what? So I can have one close relationship in my life? One person in my life that I can be close to?
Meanwhile, I have female friends... yes, actual female friends... and I love them dearly. But not in that way. Female friends that are so close they're like the sisters I've always wanted. I would do anything for them... I would be there for them any time they needed me. But I can't imagine having romantic relationships with them. I share things with them... I trust them... they're my confidants, my guides, my close friends, like family in a way.
And it's such a strange concept for me... because I've been struggling with maintaining female friendships ever since I started dating, but it seems like once I stopped thinking about it... it just happened. Suddenly I had these girls in my life that I care about... and I feel like they care about me... but it's a mutual understand and respect, rather than a romantic relationship. I'm still baffled by the entire idea of it...